2000 Elo just reached, should I quit?

I started playing chess few years ago and quickly moved to bullet games because of the faster games and the time I wanted to dedicate to chess in general. Quick, obiquitous playable games, high intensity and brutal games. I have never studied chess nor had the intension to do so, I watched multiple bullet games form strong player and that's it.
I have reached my 2000 Elo objective today but with trouble along the way: addiction, obsession, reflections about self-confidence and a couple of deleted account...

I need advice on what to do now. I have time to play chess but I cannot dedicate to it more than 30 min a day on average.

I now started enjoying playing with 2100/2200 but in friendly games. What should I do not to fall into the rabbit hole over again and question myself about the result I will get. I don't want to go back to 1900 grinding mentality and I cannot dedicate more time to it.

@cyberastronaut said in #1:
> I started playing chess few years ago and quickly moved to bullet games because of the faster games and the time I wanted to dedicate to chess in general. Quick, obiquitous playable games, high intensity and brutal games. I have never studied chess nor had the intension to do so, I watched multiple bullet games form strong player and that's it.
> I have reached my 2000 Elo objective today but with trouble along the way: addiction, obsession, reflections about self-confidence and a couple of deleted account...
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> I need advice on what to do now. I have time to play chess but I cannot dedicate to it more than 30 min a day on average.
>
> I now started enjoying playing with 2100/2200 but in friendly games. What should I do not to fall into the rabbit hole over again and question myself about the result I will get. I don't want to go back to 1900 grinding mentality and I cannot dedicate more time to it.

Never quit chess. That's my advice, with 3 years experience here. You can control your emotion, you managed to learn and to play one of the most difficult game in the world ! You have a great talent to became a good player, why do you want to quit, you are at the beginning of what you can do with all your potential ! You'll win tournaments, play marathon...

So, don't play very much if you feel yourself addicted, now, play only when you want. But if you want an advice, more you will play, more you will forgot the result. The result, the rating, it's just number. You are not a number, you are a person, an human. So, what you need is emotion, positive emotions. And for that you need to transcend the negative ones

@cyberastronaut said in #1:
> I have never studied chess nor had the intension to do so

I think what you have achieved without any study is astounding, imagine what you could do with that knowledge. I'm the exact opposite of you, loads of study, high pressure games with people far above my level and I get very embarrassed about playing a quick game due to how slow my calculations are.

30 minutes a day is absolutely fine, but my view is that bullet isn't really chess and I'd suggest not playing chess everyday but spend that time reviewing games by your favourite players and look at more historically important games that will re-enchant your enjoyment of the game. Chess is a profound game with an immense history, it won't be hard to fall in love with it again.

I know how you feel. I hit 2000 bullet just a month ago and I was scared and never wanted to play bullet again, so I grinded ultrabullet. But, eventually I got over my fear and am currently working towards 2100. Take a chance!

You have reached the top of a mountain and have found the emptiness it comes with. The Ecclesiastes book in the Bible says to enjoy eating drinking and working for these are the gifts of God. It also says to have one fistful of tranquility and one fistful of work than two fistfuls of work and chasing after the wind. So rejoice in your work for achieving 2000. Let it remain your tranquility or work. You decide.

Your having a problem separating the enjoyment of playing from the measure of your skill. Perhaps an analogy would help.

What would you say to the man that decided to stick with his right hand (pun intended) because he had scored a 9 and didn't know he had it in him to chase 10s?

yes

Its on you, if you love chess u can continue playing casual games so that even if you lose u won't lose elo
You can also try different variants and make more teams on the platform

If you got 2000 ELO, you could theoretically become a titled player soon. I wouldn't quit if i had gotten to such a stage in chess

Sounds as if chess were seen as another computer game that you "finish" by reaching a target score and then move to a next game.